the white album

'i remember walking barefoot all day on the worn hardwood floors of that house and i remember "do you wanna dance" on the record player, "do you wanna dance" and "visions of johanna" and a song called "midnight confessions". i remember a babysitter telling me that she saw death in my aura. i remember chatting  with her about reasons why this might be so, playng her, opening all the french windows and going to sleep in the leaving room.'
joan didion